When we first thought about switching to Colombia, I had a hard time wondering if we just weren't being "faithful" or "trusting God" enough by not sticking with our original choice. We are always taught to step out bravely in faith (especially men, who are called to lead their families), and began to feel guilty that we weren't doing that. But God also knows that we should play to our strengths. Ginny and I are structured people. We do much better when life is organized and risks are minimized. That doesn't mean that we shouldn't ever step out in faith (we make a big financial leap earlier this year with a campaign at church), but it does mean that if we can avoid an adoption situation that we know will cause us stress and financial worry, then why not avoid it? In the end, the right choice is about what makes us the best parents possible. Would creating a possible financial hole make us better parents? Would stressing about whether or not we would be able to get a child upon our invitation to travel to Kazakhstan make us better parents? Would trying to plan for an unknown length of travel make us better parents? For us, the answer was no. On the flip side, would waiting longer, creating a stronger financial base, and going with a more established program make us better parents? For us, the answer was yes. I truly believe that is why God led us into this, and the fact that we feel so at peace about it makes me even more certain.
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